Summerwind.

Stay. Not stray.

2010-09-02T00:22:00.004+08:00

The Syawal preparation at home is ongoing full-swing. Almost done though mom needed new flowers to complete her masterpiece. It's awesome how my parents had done up with the living room. Sometimes, i feel that it's too traditional for my liking but one's thing done deal is that the place is affectionately cozy. U stepped in and you know that it's an ideal humble abode. You feel like you wanna stay here forever.

Fuck, life is suppose to come from me and not at me.

2010-09-01T01:07:00.005+08:00

I repent. Cause simply i know nuts about how i'm going to go around this. How do you possibly attain a brighter future for yourself with just mediocre qualifications? Yes, like everyone else, i have goals in life. Far too many i don't know which to wish upon first.

I need to survive this heart-wrenching 6 gruesome months (sacrifizing all my blood, sweat, tears!) and i promise you once i'm done, i will never look back. Cause i'm sooo ready for everything that comes next.

2010-02-25T00:53:00.002+08:00

Meet me at your best behaviour, meet me at your worse
For there will be no stone unturned, or bubble left to burst

On (bleargh) leave.

2010-02-18T16:56:00.009+08:00

What a way to watch a day goes by. Such a waste, as the sun is shining gleefully above and the wind is growling and blowing. It's such a perfect moment to let your senses run wild, feel positive and be anywhere but home. To laugh, to drool at new dresses at the glass windows, to let your taste bud savour the first spoonful of that fine, silky smooth frozen yogurt or to chase a toddler around aimlessly at an open field. Why would i kill such a day. Why would i not be gear up for a day like this. Why.

Im fueling up alot on Cool Rhino and simply moved by Breakfast at Tiffany's at this moment.

Reborn.

2010-02-18T02:02:00.004+08:00

My biological clock is ticking, not in any race of time in getting married and starting a family though, but career-wise and in my present state. I do not want to develop a confused, unhappy version of me. I wanna be balanced in all areas that represent myself. Situations right now simply make me wear my heart on my sleeve and try. Why wait when you can re-shape your life now.

2010-02-15T23:40:00.001+08:00

"So trust me when I say if a guy is treating you like he doesn't give a shit, he genuinely doesn't give a shit. No exceptions."

Life as we know it.

2010-02-14T18:49:00.005+08:00

Today might be my last Sunday pigging around even though school's break is already on. After a week of hiatus, you might think going to work again is really gonna be tough. It definitely is. To catch up and be focused on something vital again, it takes lots of work, really. And get this, not only am i not be able to fully appreciate more than 2 months of independence, i'm starting my fyp soon and he's going back to work too, real soon. So, weekends are off-limits and i'm 22, still seeking for a social life. And yes, things are going to get very crazy but moody. So, you have to do nothing but deal with it. *sigh

Confession.

2010-02-13T08:41:00.009+08:00

Stay true to one style and getup is like to stuck in a rut. Not to mention, exhausting and apparently undiversified. How can u just have one look when trends are gradually evolving thru every seasons and decades? And discovering up and coming and asian fashion designers are now shaping better pieces of art (though painfully costly) for ordinary followers like us (experts like thakoon, Christopher Kane, Elizabeth & James, 3.1 Phillip Lim) But as much i hate to believe, finding my true style identity is like going as far as searching for innerpeace at the mountains of Nepal. Sometimes, just channeling goddess Audrey Hepburn and analyze her every fabrics that seep on her skin can be kinda a fluke. Look, she's ever timeless, classy, girls still worship her even after she's gone and she'ld look great in anything. But you'ld also wish to look like british darling, Alexa Chung, Rachel Bilson, Diane Kruger and even boho babe Vanessa hudgens. These individuals have such bold fashion senses and it's utter refreshing sometimes when they'ld crawled out of their elements and turn maybe country or glamour goddess, for some instances. (And literally, they aced at every moment in time.)

For newly 22, i'm still experimenting and enhancing my tastes. I seek for more mature pieces and wear something that fits that doesn't suffocate my body or melt in the background. I'm open to all styles, but like right now neutrals and soft pastels just kick it wif me coz they give me such freed to blend in with nature, but i'm still (forever true) to vintage and all. And i believe these styles will stay on wif me, and yes, they are my identity.

Couch potato.

2010-02-11T09:10:00.003+08:00

Commercials make Resort World astounding. I'm so going. Or not, the other options would be HongKong or Gold Coast.... right, i thought so. So, had multiple scoops of ice-cream and nestled before the tv. First debut of Ellen on AI. She's just so cool. And shrieked like a hyena for Wipeout. Practically a mad-cow show! Lastly, time for Sex and the City S2. Still on Carrie and Mr Big on-off-on and off again because this time he suddenly got engaged to a skinny (and dull, urgh) woman which broke Carrie into pieces. But i love the ending where she congratulated Mr Big and said, "Hubble" which was an excerpt from The way we were (I believed i'd watched the show). Finally, i switched off.

2010-02-10T19:29:00.001+08:00

Yes, you beat the shit outta me... but i do, love you.

Gibberish.

2010-02-10T18:20:00.013+08:00

Hermione Granger, highest-paid actress, Burberry... and seriously, what's next?... Emma is just bloody brilliant. And so delicately beautiful, she melts our hearts. She represents well for the youths of our generation. Can barely wait for People Tree! :)

You smashed a plate over my head, then i set fire to our bed..

Hugh oh hugh.

2010-01-12T20:10:00.009+08:00

I was wrong about Hugh Grant. He's obviously wittier than your average synthetic hollywood mellodrama. Plus, he got Nespresso. hmmm.

And it's great to be back though, alive and kicking.

Circa 1986.

2010-01-07T21:51:00.003+08:00

Warhol; work of an epic.

Blah blah bleeping blah.

2010-01-07T15:46:00.004+08:00

'Bout time i replenish. So stay close...

2009-11-25T16:04:00.000+08:00

Brace yourself, i'm gonna rock 2010.

Calamity.

2009-11-18T16:20:00.006+08:00

At 0400hrs, i rose from slumber and shivered uncontrollably. Tossed and turned, like a druggie. Wailed for mum finally and realized how the temperature had shook up quite amazingly. Again. I pushed myself so so hard to make a few ends meet. I'm not the most healthiest person right now (nvr had been btw) but i'm willing to risk watever it takes to smile for a million more years to come. I mean an opportunity to take a chance, nvr to blow it in my face instead. Finally, a proper pristine luncheon with my pjs on. Tuned in to American TV in the morning and lounging in bed for a couple more hours.

And it's still a weekday, I noe good times gonna be done before we even feel it comes. I noe I'm slowing things down. I'm cutting some slacks even though I'm carrying a week's old load. Just let me be. It's still gonna be one helluva life anyway, emerging as a true survivor.

2009-11-04T10:40:00.002+08:00

Oh, i so heart designer Nanette Lepore's pad. Makes me wanna go pick out some fresh flowers today.

Sweet manipulation.

2009-10-24T01:54:00.002+08:00

ethereal taste of heaven.

A simple touch of flair.

2009-10-18T11:51:00.010+08:00

Fine, my study desk is infested with various junks and filths and goodness, i didnt even bother lifting a finger to get magazines, books, keyboard, umbrella (uh umbrella!)... cleaned. Bollocks to whats gonna happen cause I'm just lounging around today and finally having a proper lunch, yes i will! A year's to make me worry about this entire space. I feel like auctioning off all my stuffs or just garage sale em, paint it in dark hues and start over. Likewise for my tresses. (LOL)

No, seriously. Furniture-browsing keeps u hot and bothered plus very inspired. And moreover its your space, you're entitled to even trash or wreck it as you will. But let's start with replacing this broken, spiderweb-by vintage 'chandelier' (about time). My family had it for a long time. Placed it at our living room at our old house. And now, it's mine though one bulb is no longer alive. And plenty and plenty of paintings, stencils, lanterns etc coz i would love an artsy room conversing back at me. Omg and here's a cue; this manic, thrilling notion is million times better than planning your 21st birthday party! Really! And people wouldnt be involve. It's you and your only private hideout place.

And IKEA is apparently your one-stop for everything. I'm tempted to lose myself on the kitchen-wares but went straight ahead to find more lovely quilts and sofa throw. So warm, damn straight resist i could not! And would like a mother and child painting very much, yes please. Coz it reminds me so much of momma.

My bed will always be in the centerfold comes every raya!

The gang was in full force and looking as colour-coordinated and gorgeous as ever.

But i can't possibly forget last year. Man, how could i can?(With you having more hair lol)

2009-10-17T04:17:00.004+08:00

4.17am. eyes peeled, contemplating too hard,weakened heart. everything sets off to nowhere.

Tough Luck.

2009-10-07T19:00:00.017+08:00

Two worlds don't collide, they repel. we have zilch thing going on, admit it.

Someone from 1999: why do you prefer to live in regret and repent now when you know, shes literally outta reach. you won't gain what you don't deserve.

Beautiful Stranger.

2009-09-30T13:07:00.007+08:00

Love at the very first sight;

My Saving Grace.

2009-09-23T18:35:00.009+08:00

Boooo!

Only in my heart, there's a bundle of all of you.

Broken record.

2009-09-17T22:05:00.006+08:00

vibe: wreck.

Buried myself with vogue from night to day; seclude from reality is what i do best. Only tomorrow, justice will overrule. I'm finally seeing the sun.

Flower Child.

2009-09-12T12:20:00.005+08:00

I feel flustered as we're closing in with Ramadhan. Coz you won't feel the faint if its not this time of the year. I know it's expected... but this festive year has been unsually heart-folding. Even though we've been recycling more as opposed to buying more. Probably as i get older, i tend to be more aware and conscious before playing with fire (financial). Not big news but it's a form of sacrifice to welcome in Syawal with an open heart and mind. Why not make the impossible happen by not excluding every individual to get that sense of joy and happiness for once. And of coz, still spending within our means.

To die for.

2009-09-01T22:19:00.010+08:00

vibe: ugly but melodious.

Seen and heard!; were too starstruck 99% of the time. Esp when they marched right passed. OOh tat 'James Dean'!!

Skipped the rest of the day and youtube-ing for reruns.

Ice-creams and wilderness.

2009-08-15T01:29:00.015+08:00

Yes, murdering time and murdering your pocket into holes. But as usual, thanks for this one helluva day. We ogled and drooled at you-noe-what, MATTHEW WILLIAMSON and BCBG MAX AZRIA, we want a piece of you!

But modesty is the-best(or my only)-LUXury to flaunt, though it's one thing money can't buy.

Liza was right coz she said yesterday was such impromptu and it was; I was right coz i said an impromptu day usually end up needing more cash. And guess wat? it did.... Hehe.

Sunbeam.

2009-08-05T16:39:00.008+08:00

brooding too much or should you not care. you're already immune to this yet you seemed rushed. still you dun wanna jump on the gun too soon. you really want this to stay and last a little while.

2009-08-03T20:28:00.003+08:00

I hesitated to say I was a bait for you. I'd be lying if I did now say I wasn't intrigued.

Cheap Thrills.

2009-07-29T10:57:00.011+08:00

Abled to attend only on the first day. JUXTAPOSE WAS THE STAR!

Balls of fury.

The set was kicked-ass.

Yes, i'm flirting with you, butterscotch. LOL.

These were fucking delectable, tho they're just being fried veggies.

Spicy Seafood Ramen : AMAZING!

So, you clobber the extra-soft, uber yummy tofu like this, like this...!

And this ladies and gentlemen, is how you mishandle weed with such force.
It's just bad for health.

And she's the only one so far whom i've known who is so keen on Wasabi. Weird to the o!

But my sister is such a total sweetie (i'm not just saying it coz she treated me). I'm saying it coz she revelated me one evening out of the blue to sushi fest. THANKKKK YOOOUUUSS! Must be my big-shot, lucky day. And august promises so much, I can barely keep my toes still.

And I miss you hell much, peanut butter. Come home soon.

2009-07-26T17:27:00.002+08:00

What'sthepoint?; youstriveandyoustilllose.

I'm just a dancer, not human.

2009-07-19T13:15:00.007+08:00

How can i possibly ensure myself that for one second, i am better off living without my ARMY of love ones?

He's ill again, heading to the hospital probably screening, dad's pissed, mum told me to live on only bread, all i've ever done is zilch but shop, stood up an ample circle of people at any given time and i'm shunning off this obnoxious family drama altogether.

WHAT AM I, ONLY 12! or 21?... why didn't i have any soul and energy left to fight this off?

I'm no more demure, patient or funny... i'm just pathetic.

Un-forsaken.

2009-07-17T13:53:00.013+08:00

Take me to the highest peak
give me a moment

there's alot you ought to know

on how deep this love means.

Time out.

2009-07-12T10:06:00.016+08:00

KLCC

Yesterday was wreck. No, wait it was at it's finest until suddenly. And boohoo, I was being a major slimeball, leeching all over him while he was in the most foulest situation. Right, in reality what we had yesterday was tacky and exploited, mixed feelings squashed up in a ball and didnt even end off with a proper goodbye. I regretted that moment yesterday, didn't wish to rewind it again. Now, let's just stick to mainstream happiness darling.

This chemistry is still electric, thank goodness.

I noticed NS transformed him overnight. 4 days and he'd been giving me a different signal. Kinda alarmed there coz i couldn't really get to him. I can't envision it after 2 years plus, too much of his different facets, i'm afraid if i had to choose. However, his feelings are still intact, and that's what vital i figure. Ok, i should be his rock for now. (hopefully you'ld book-out again.)

Ice Age 3 3-D was freaking ass FUN, i presumed it'll defeat Obsessed anyday, even if it starred a star-studded hotties like Beyonce and Ali Larter eh. & Friday, Steak Night was my call. SO STOKED!

I swear red meat is made for a hearty, messy girl like me.

2009-07-03T19:52:00.002+08:00

DAD ABSOLUTELY DID NOT DESERVE TO BE SWINDLED OFF LIKE THIS. FUCK!

Claustrophobia.

2009-07-02T16:52:00.013+08:00

I was kinda humble to life. Uplifting my spirits to stay on and keep moving. I make a makeshift plan that i won't ever failed. Now tell me, where do i stand?

I don't know why these days it's juz so goddammned hard to be HUMAN.

Stuck in reverse.

2009-06-30T20:13:00.019+08:00

& (don't you feel) cherry bombs erupting in my heart?

You rocked my world, you know you did

And everything I own I give

The rarest love who'd think I'd find

Someone like you to call mine.

- MJ, You'll always be King.

Nostalgic.

2009-06-24T10:49:00.011+08:00

Hike back down memory lane, 90's is the most prominent in all my years.

5ive fulfilled my youth. To me, they were the bomb, the sex symbols (*laughs).

(Not ashamed to admit cuz boybands were the hottest imports then.

Everyone was always in the mood for pop culture.)

I remembered crushing hard and cold for the middle guy. *blushes

And 1999 was incredible, I met you.

But of course, there are plenty more memoirs to last a fucking lifetime. I simply wanna relive in the 90s' again!

The change we wanna become.

2009-06-22T20:34:00.004+08:00

de-clutter; even for this life.

2009-06-14T11:49:00.003+08:00

I won't be smothered by short vacays anymore!

Whiz Kid.

2009-06-11T23:57:00.004+08:00

geee you'll be gone sooner than i imagine, though this is not the last fight, this is not goodbye.
wake up to me my beloved or 25 days will be done.

what could i have done else if not for loving you?

Girls of Summer.

2009-06-11T21:21:00.011+08:00

Grey Gardens

What could your perfect summer be like?

Mine would consist of a nice cold bath at home, breatheable clothes, Nora Roberts' Garden trilogy and lots and lots of freshly-squeezed lime juice.

Crimson.

2009-06-08T14:19:00.008+08:00

THE Weekend.

A trip to anywhere doesn't have to cost you your entire fortune, doesn't take a lifetime, doesn't have to leave you with a depressing more pounds under your skin; but isn't necessarily be enticing does it? On the road was rough, scrunched with constant humid and tolerated with skipping stomachs all the time. Being a (surprising) klutz for one minute, I was thinking of home the entire time.

Art of liberation.

2009-06-01T18:25:00.009+08:00

Talk of the town abt survival,... Piece of cake. ;)

Tenth year, comback.

2009-05-28T21:30:00.021+08:00

[looking at yearbook pictures]

Romy: Well we definitely weren't in the A group, but you know, we weren't really in the B group either.
Michele: Oh my god! We weren't in the C group were we?

Romy: Oh god no, that was, like, all the losers and honor students, like Sandy Frink and Heather Mooney.

Michele: So, Romy, what group WERE we in?

Romy: Well, we weren't really in a group, we were more like loners. Oh look! There we are!

Michele: Yeah, and alone.

Nis if you ask me, I wouldn't mind being labelled a loner or one-half of an eccentric duo whatever then (if that was ever, ever the case). Coz i had you and we're always having a ball in our own perfect circle (with some lovely people), don't u agree?

All the luck in the world to us, our youthful revival, our dancing shoes and our childhood memories tomorrow ;)

Faire l'amour.

2009-05-27T12:49:00.014+08:00

How super stardom can rise from the purest sound of country music. How love can act so impulse on two individuals as they tied the knot at a supermarket. How the person u were married to weren't exactly the same person you comprehend him to be later on. How love triangles can twist and progressed into a perfect friendship.

An ideal ending can take in many forms. Life is such an astonishing thing ever. You just have to.... find out. Not to mention, River Phoenix was so, so hot.

Dethroned.

2009-05-24T01:24:00.006+08:00

so what if you cared so what if you loved you still stood standing without a sound you still breathed without a whiff all you evoked is crap all you fucked is manipulation why must he be responsible why must he own up to something that's not meant to be his you don’t deserve him you don’t deserve to know he doesn’t know you anymore what you believe now is his heart what he believes now is only your gritting deceit.

2009-05-22T11:07:00.014+08:00

Black Heart Inertia.
Brace yourself bitches, Brandon is way uber-hot, hotter than ever!

SingFest '010;) coming my wayyyy..

Apple Crumble.

2009-05-20T13:46:00.010+08:00

What are you going to do with the rest of your life?!

I've been so rigid on my views on how things should be in my life and how they are (not) going, I left myself unprepared for "what if". It's as though I've kept my life on hold, waiting for my future to fall into my lap.

School has always been an eternal pain plus, I can't grab hold of lessons these days. Too excruciating. Definitely this year has not prepared me for what's big ahead to come. Probably brain-dead; as quadrillions of molecules in-waiting to penetrate into my mind and which is first on the list to think, is apparently another issue. I feel i'm at my worst. Not to mention, harbouring more pits of zits and open pores. Eww. Sometimes, i came to class being so so clueless, I wanted to cry. If you haven't faced Java, Networking, IT security, etc.., u haven't face anything yet. It's that impossible! I feel like a binary code, feeling all-troublesome to decode, but of course, still can.

Now, desperately i'm gasping for air (and strength). I reckon myself spending lesser and lesser time in school to eventually OWN A LIFE. I was wide-eyes at 3.30 in the morning and couldn't bat an eyelid ever since. I was way too busy worrying about something out of the blue to plunge in an attempt of sleeping back. Finally, my energy's defused not until 8am. *Sigh And of course, not rested enuff. Still hungry for a booster and prayer.

Oh well, Saturday would be another day. Hopefully.

Come back home soon my dear. Life's no substance without you. Ask Tanjung Pinang to release you this instant.

Three's a fucking crowd.

2009-05-16T21:38:00.003+08:00

FUCK YOU for messing up with my girl's head.

FUCK YOU very much for bullshitting everyone.

FUCK THE HELL YOU she's fucking wonderfully amazing on her own.

Linger.

2009-05-13T00:47:00.009+08:00

If home is where i think the heart is, then wherever you are, i'm home.

Miss No-longer-Afraid.

2009-05-11T11:49:00.015+08:00

When deadline started looming in, having a less-than-impressive night & dark circles continue to orbit arnd the peepers; one can't deny but to screw normality climate, cut class and promptly u-turn back home to take nothing but cheap breakfast & project runway. Alone. Desperate measures call for desperate actions.

My witty one, you were right. Doesn't count if i were as hard as rock to please.

Wildflower.

2009-05-01T21:01:00.011+08:00

"here we are
glowing sheeny than the sun in the afternoon
burning faster than the closest star
falling back down to the Earth,
i love you so it sometimes hurts"

To you, my upcoming firefighter.
Fight the fire like the way u'ld fight for our fate. heeee!

Fierce fete.

2009-05-01T20:23:00.007+08:00

Project Runway season 4 is by far the hardest to snub these days. Searched 'em all over youtube and am completely drugged. The finale was definitely a stunner and gosh, wished had been there for Fashion Week. Gosh, hw depressing it is to noe, i'm actually just day-hallucinating abt it.

Can't you tell that these are FI-ERCEEE!?

Rami's

Christian's

Yummy Rami was my top favourite since day 1. His work was always deliciously lovely, sophiscated and wearable but of course, his couldn't beat Christian's dramatic, chic and impeccable work of art. And the latter is definitely a clear winner, no?

Any day that's not to be given away.

2009-04-26T17:07:00.005+08:00

Mama, put my guns in the ground
I can't shoot them anymore.
That long black cloud is comin' down
I feel like I'm knockin' on heaven's door.

Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door.
-Bob Dylan

2009-04-22T10:16:00.011+08:00

For you i bleed myself dry.

The reason you'd live.

2009-04-19T12:30:00.019+08:00

"Junks" we downed ourselves with.

Capturing baby turtles.

Obviously, he/she is a picture-magnet.

God bless the greens.

Today can be just any given Sunday; sunny, lonesome, unmaddening, the way u always picture it to be when ur not at downtown. But i take it as quite a retreat for myself after dealing with a busy (or sorta) week. Furthermore, it ain't pretty being home alone and feeling like you could eat the entire universe since mum and dad had a quick romantic getaway to somewhere. And sister, just being sister, is i guess digging on her new love 24/7. So that leaves me.

It's pleasant to come across something remotely unexpected and beautiful everyday in your life but u dun get much of it when ur in SG, agree? But I guess it's finder's keepers and jackpotize!when i stumbled upon a really cool boutique in Heeren, I just noe I'm gonna drop by it for the next million years or so. In my opinion, it offers alot of solid, bold, breath-taking bases (frm party dresses to winter jackets) to the very tiny quirky details which we'ld always go 'Aw, just look at that!' and weigh down our hearts (like the unique grandma jewellery). U should have seen the sandals and knee-length boots that i literally went godsmack with! So i call it the "Haute Couture meets the streets" shop.

And what's more groovy is that the shop girl sews her own dresses and obviously went to Fashion School and have plenty of knowledge to bear. U can easily dig out alot frm her and she'll delightfully bring u mre than u bargained for. There are plenty of Blair Waldof's cocktail outfits and even lucky, lucky bitch my sis is, she snagged this particular LBD that i guess made her look like she havent eaten EVER and looked like MK Olsen on a good day. Really! Also, i was in awed when she even managed to slide in this wonderful starry trenchcoat at the last minute which I thought was tremendously ideal for traveling (and Kak Sue called it the Harry Porter coat). So u could see how i boldly over-estimate this shop. Coz i simply love its couture and i wanna come back to it and swipped in as many pieces as possible. Now if only i could afford most of em'...hmm.. A girl just gotta have her clothes..

Oh blast. One more day. (School, dun be such a tease.)

You can't be serious.

2009-04-14T00:39:00.022+08:00

Manhattan : my heart beats for.

Till then, i hope i can still be counting days and anticipate, anticipate, anticipate.. For now, my vacation life is hanging by a thread, I'm not sure if i should still be blushing with exhilaration anymore. 6 days more and I'm on the brink of dunno wat to think or wat to expect and that's for sure. Year 2 is (very, very) soon to come by. And that's when i yearn.. to cease the 2 years quickie and take this bloody diploma off my mind once and for all. And work to get distinctions to boot, so i won't worry too much. But i'm really blessed with the discussion the other night, upon realizing my parents are thankfully perfectly normal, as they always want to be endlessly supportive. At least, i noe i have a serious, solid fan base.*laughs! So giant hopes i'ld land into my area of choice after all of these have been accomplished (plz!). In fact i'm gonna do just that one day (I hope), when i'm able to run to my family with every proof of achievements possible (just thinking about that tingling glow of beam all over me when it makes me more luminous against the light and people). Tat on i noe i've made it or sorta. I told D and he was willing to suck it in with a warm smile and his encouraging open arms (That's REALLY good news frm my man!). After all its only by right, my life and people have the minimal say or none. I sanely have the authority.

Right then only i can serenely hold my bestfren's hand as we walk thru the streets of north-central France together or even doing anything out of this world with no such qualms and no one to say anything. (Hehehe) This is happily beyond prozac if anything, :).

Everyday tragedy.

2009-04-08T20:54:00.005+08:00

Life is worth deprecating.
Life is unkind.
Life is selfish.
To your horror, you can nvr stop figuring out how exactly life works.

Party on.

2009-03-30T11:40:00.029+08:00

Feeding on : Rachael Yamagata.

I'm in the dance, and it's a chance

But stay and watch awhile

I'll be singing a tune just for you with a smile

And maybe, if I'm lucky

You'll tip your hat to me, and you'll discover

That you like her

People are bickering over tiny, insignificant things right under my nose. Esp a brawl among the ones I impossibly can hate. Why, why, why is tat???

The 27th was supposedly my sister's birthday dinner. Like striking the lottery for me coz she paid for everything and i didn't get her anything so far. Could i be any more futile? But everyone definitely thought the cozy, more than mediocre affair was like a quickie trip to Wonderland. Tho it'll be cuter with a dress code... It was still a blast!

Ok, lets start with the guests. The ladies were obviously delightful and fun, hands down. Not forgetting, gorgeous, mischievious and smart bunch of kooks. U can even talk intellectual and current affairs with them and they still can keep u entertained. They were that gr8! So imagine, at the dinner table... Am i glad i did talk with my mouth full!

And seemed like we were the last customers, the place couldnt close before we walked out and i could see the staffs were reluctant to entertain us till the very end. Hahaha I wouldn't blame them!

Obviously the candles weren't adequate.

With this kind of spread, only u noe where to get it.

The mexican vegetables weren't exactly my cup of tea.

I love the scream of "Brain freeze!"

'The jungle' was drank by the Amazonians which they declared themselves. *laughs

Sharkies.

Awesome goodie bag.

Embarrassment aside, still got a Coach.

"Unwrap us.." *Purring sound*

Woozy.

Only left were trails of sweet hugges and kisses...

Big Apple take me away.

2009-03-24T22:19:00.006+08:00

Here is not the place for me anymore. Everything's just so wrong, cheap and infuriating. ggrrr.

Little Miss Fallen.

2009-03-23T02:38:00.024+08:00

This lil hearty feeling which i'd felt since years ago, only-god-knows-why has always these certain shades of oddness, wrongness and even lividity in it; it's just so hard to define. But thankfully it's been getting better and better as time proceeds. Yippee :) I'm so content it looks really good now. A major part coz i noe what i am to you. So thank you.

So imagine my thoughts currently; wanting a contemporary, 21st century love and affection to turn into all quaint and classic again, like making out with a mysterious homeboy in a secret garden(your new discovery) for the first time or even as simple as kissing under the plain sunset, it's just so freaking darn romantic dun you think?.

I think humans are created to desire these kind of moments which remind them of where they first learnt em from like from their ancestors or even fairytales. And why do they want this? Coz it uses from simple ways. So, even if 'new and improved' love is being born, u noe its the foundation from the old-fashioned rules which kept it alive, rite? That's y some conducts and proposals are called roooomantic, sweeeet and timeeeless.

Sometimes, no idea wat i just babbled. *laughs

ps:what am i doing mugging on business when my heart is alredy for fashion and such.n hopefully there'll be some photography on the next post.bleak alert.

Melancholia.

2009-03-20T18:33:00.006+08:00

In a nick of time, it all will change. U. Me. Our lifestyles, the environment, mankind, ... It's all too.. routined. U just noe it'll keep coming. I'll say that this all becoming too cliche for words. And there's no more spark. And obviously, we can't turn it all around but fortunately there are always time to prepare. Like I'd really heard recently, "Don't wait until you really need to find the toilet." Omg, i can't believe i'm actually shaking when typing this. Probably inside of me already sense tat i'm absolutely not big with changes. But judging from the canopy of my life, basically said, it's just so prone to change. And the only thing to do is to deal with it, im afraid.

ps:for the record,i'm officially harbouring a secret,lesbian crush on Kristen Stewart.hahaha!and goddammit i really need a R-B Wayfarer for crying out loud.

Take the plunge.

2009-03-18T18:10:00.018+08:00

Now healing are my severe, atrocious UV burns. There u go, for promising off sunblocks and in contrary, expect a natural tan. At the back of my mind, i guess natural remedies, like Aloe Vera and mineral water are the only convincing meds to do the trick for these burns, let's all pray. But swimming quite kept me jovial, esp with the company of my babygirl. YEAY!

I guess life rewards to those who wait, like im so over the moon, that D finally ends his 3-desolute hardship-yrs with a much-hopeful diploma cert! Finally dude, i'm so proud of u! Let's celebrate, whatever u want. Coz we all noe ur hardwork needs to be earnestly honoured. National Service is the only, stepping stone next while not quite on our cards really.. but it's wat keep appearing on our listing. Tho i'll always wait with anxiety yet for u and ur next move, i noe u'll be the one that's only be fruitful and worth the wait in the end.

she & him

Keep myself moving from now on, dun quite see what's disabling me from it. Coz what drives me stronger will eventually inspire my entire life.

The secret passage to Life.

2009-03-12T14:44:00.005+08:00

D,Iloveyou.

Ludicrous.

2009-03-10T18:38:00.003+08:00

I keep forgetting that it's 2009; I need a life pronto!

Power-Goddess.

2009-03-08T17:56:00.018+08:00

Feeding on : Sheryl Crow - Everyday Is A Winding Road.

Let's celebrate the inner hue of pink in all us!

Women all over the world rejoice! Today heard is a special day for us, International Women's Day. Let's all be wild and free, shop till we drop, eat while we can, dance til our limbs practically break; of course dun we all forget the essence of us being a female in the first place. These fruitful, long years have taught all of us to love ourselves first then love others. Not only our curves that make us unique, our power and ability allow ur to have that edge. Look out world, women is no longer the weaker link anymore!

What i love about myself today, I slept for the whole 12 hours long and woke up very refreshed instead of harbouring many series of aches and sleeps around the eyes. What a kicking day to start a sunday. Tho sunday morning is probably the whole reason to catch a good breakfast and talk-shows, I'm relieved i skipped the whole damn that and watched Channel V since 4pm. Currently, the music videos are all by women and for everyone to celebrate women. Hence, i feel so empowered today.

Post-destruction, my sister is now hungry for shopping more than ever. Yesterday she was yelping all "Let's buy new clothes!!" As if her whole freaking life depends on it. Haha! Maybe thats just hw she cld feed her broken heart. Oh, i just love her to death even tho, siblings' rivalry always make me sick. And I so got sucked in with Instyle March 09 Issue, love, love, love the fashion! I so love trivia on a sunday evening. :)

I got to catch My Bloody Valentine wif of course my own Valentine yesterday. Pretty intense, disgusting and i love 3Ds but can i say that the storyline is very errr how do u say it... Amateur?! Can't believe i wasted my 13 bucks at Lido to discover that the very handsome Jensen Ackles is actually the culprit in the movie! Gawwd! Actually, right from the start, its kinda predictable he's the one coz he's always here and there where the scenes of killing took place. Ahhh, i shld have trusted spoilers before watching the next movie.

COLDPLAYYYYYYYYYYYY!!! AM I ALREDY TOO LATE FOR THE $88!!!! CUZ IM SO GOIN!!

______ and me go hand-in-hand.

2009-03-06T17:04:00.028+08:00

I'm pretty much fried for the weekend. I noe Friday is sooo Bowling Day until the next early morning (Haha!). The usual laughs and bowl till my bones crack (tho i ain't that good) and need only more sessions of pool for the surgery. Probably yesterday, i struck gold when generous Godmom invited me and D to have the first taste of her only fine, scrumptious Chili Crab. Right there that moment, before hammering those stubborn shells apart wif my bare teeths, I thought i just died and went to Seafood Heaven when just the taste and smell of the gravy was wholly enuff to make me salivated the whole day.

And omfg! i just gotta stop fantasizing about Japan (tho i dun even noe what "Ichiban" simply means) if i dun do something, right..?..

Whenever i watch, 'Number One Single', I wld simply remember Lisa and her adorable cat-eyed glasses and lovely, she hasn't changed much.

Stay - Lisa Loeb

ps:tomorrow the kaput love affair is gotta be resolved.sis will be back in the market.

When lotsa pink make u hurl.

2009-03-02T17:55:00.025+08:00

Huda's 'Pretty in Pink' 7th Birthday is not only saccharine sweet but it also feels like a long-awaited summer in this monsoon season. Simply an ass-kicking rainy day staying indoors.

Di sebalik tabir..

Awwww kan..

Cutesie, wishing you a merry seven more you-know-what and definitely more than that to come. We'll be by urside to spark up the year by year.

ps:hope i'll be on my way to japan in 2011 *high hopes.

The Silent Killer.

2009-03-02T16:00:00.016+08:00

Be tactful more personally that not all situations are actually worth your energy and tears, unlike pursuing everything from the book. Cause the harder you fight, the harder you'ld fall. And if it all doesn't work, we'll have to miserably drag our sorry ass and move along. That'll be like cleaning up for the entire country's crap, isn't it? But what's crucial is that we really deserve a pat on the back cause it means we just completed one heroic deed for no one but ourselves.

You're fucking gifted; you give love a proper meaning.

ps:slumdog was mad awesome!

Humanitarian Baby.

2009-02-25T15:04:00.027+08:00

" Lead me to your heaven baby."

170209: The day of perfectly clear blue sky, tupperwared-potluck, infinite school-girl giggles and smiles, faithful girlfriends and forces of nature.

We girls vividly did not subdue any awkward feelings at all towards nature and only have lovely, fine words to thank and remember god of his artsy, beautiful creations.

Me: Ok everyone, that's the ideal location we all should stand.

Fatin (typing quickly on her hp): .....Love you b. Jgn nakal2 tau..

Maria: Huh??

Atiqa (saying in her heart): &#%& bitch! Can't u see I'm alredy ready with my Nicole Scherzinger's pose and still u want me to move. %$#@!

HAHAHA!

Fatin and Maria looked like cute, precious 5 year-olds!

Orange ones.

Yellow ones.

And fatin poured out her feelings.

3 to 4 hours of embracing and we left being pretty much awed... just what could be brainier?

Meanwhile, my bed-side lamp, the only source of light at that time, was clearly on the verge of fizzling off just now morning because it got sick of watching me hogged my old, ancient journal. Ha, i got so randomly engrossed with it that I actually forgot to sleep. I'm complete with all smiles upon reading it softly in my heart; beamed for the memoirs, beamed for the amateur vocabs and beamed for D as my only, bona fide inspiration for all the entries. HAHA, kids and puppy love.

Now, it moved me to actually relive myself again in a new diary and of course, i assure that it won't be only about the sweet, guilty love, gosh there should be so much more to life than that.

Fyi, am completely psych in catching Slumdog Millionaire at the movies this friday. After all those impressive Oscar's recognition, i feel that it's a no-brainer that this film will be anticipatingly the best, right? then y else do i hear praises all over town and 8 Academy wins. Well, i gut-feel this one won't disappoint.

&& kinda miss the Roswell and Smallville era. (*Sigh, maybe i do have these tiny soft-spots for hunky superheros.)

Wish u hadn't been the boss of me.

2009-02-20T00:58:00.025+08:00

These zillion monster itches trailing all over my body just refused to leave my side and instead they eeckily nestled on at as many areas of my body as possible, making them looked like they're the worst red-zones ever. Doh, as if i'm not enduring the urge of scratching at all by now... cuz any Stepford mom will say that scratches can eventually leave everlasting (ugly) marks. And of coz, i will not beg to differ.

One thing memorable about today is: Sis's trying to be a budding brownie-baker. Yeah, for real. A notch up for her (yay!) because she ditched Betty Crocker's guidance this time and started everything from scratch. And guess what? I must say she nailed it. Her brownies are quite there, yummy!, i mean as long as they're edible and tasted good they're alredy there, not like they're gonna be on sale or anything anyway. And of course, all of this won't happen without the help of our lovely Nigella. (We just love her shows, me thinks she's like the Angelina Jolie of cooking programmes.)

And strange, is it possible for me to grow moles at this moment? Coz i swear i saw two of 'em just appeared on my right cheek. My sister and mom said they're just an accumulation of my face oil and sweats. I mean is it true? They looked kinda cute btw (hehe), i wonder if they're gonna be permanent.

Lastly, these few days have been quite a daze for my lovely bestfriend/superheroine. By far, nothing well cld ever easily twist and turn this hostile situation. But it's so amazing, when i assume that some people out there wld alredy back down and surrender within minutes if they're faced wif the same state, while she's actually still standing and fighting. I mean this is beyond impressive or wat. .. Ohmygoodness, i just love u! From every tiny pieces of my heart, i'm just so proud of u!

U'LL ALWAYS HAVE ME AT EVERY STEP OF THE WAY! ;)

ps:i hadn't say this publicly often but sourpuss do miss him very much.can i please have a second time round of gloria jean's coffees' date so i can watch how high u get from that ice latte??

All's well that ends well.

2009-02-14T11:58:00.015+08:00

One of the places in Singapura in my opinion,

that could matched the tremendous landscape of Paris. Heeees.

Literally, feeling the urge to break out again (going wild at an international concert, i mean.) It would be great just forgetting about ur senses, and just free-spiritedly float by. Letting the music lifts u up and drifting u away into some Neverland place that makes u forget about the world that's forever at ur heels.

Now having subsidiary thoughts of catching Coldplay live. Heard them rocking the scene soon from my ever-reliable source. I mean yes, its Coldplay. They may sometimes just bore u to death but most of their hits can really strike the right cords in you, just as long as u're happy to admit it. Me, guilty as charged, i resisted initially but hey, i could always grab my sister along. She's one who wldn't care a hoot about seeing that psycho side of me being unleashed in the open, even almost on the verge of collapsing for Incubus once, Coz, typically, shes exactly like tat too! But we'll see, you noe that my words can be ever so controlling than my actions do, well thats me.

Anyhoo, yesterday was blossomy. I'm not into V-day's of any sort but Nisa and me kinda had a little ruckus together just having a mini pre-celebration of it. Contradiction, much? We just had our kind of fun spending lovely little times together, just being fucking chatty and sharing a simply wacked (sinful) dinner with each other.

So, we had a simple exchange-gifts session (her idea), mine to her was definitely effortless, hehe! And after that, back to more chattering up a storm. She kept wondering how we could have so much to talk about, when we frequently meet- beats me too. At one point, i kept saying "Smurf", and it felt so bizarre, wondering why. And both of us went really whiny, omfg the intensity of our insecurities is so annoying i tell you. Hahaha, only BFFs can potentially handle that i guess. And it was just beautiful all-around - the night, the esplanade bathed in dark sky sans the stars for the day, the secrets, the geeky smiles and definitely the best friend. Ahhhh...

Bohemia Ladies..

My gift was embarrassingly instant,

even attaching the wrapper with masking tape.

Hers was lovely, especially the "L" earrings. Adding the jewelleries to my collection. Heee!

The Revival.

2009-02-10T01:45:00.017+08:00

Omg, i can't believe i'm actually sitting thru all this while having a nonsensical flick called 'Superstar' which stars Will Ferrell and Molly Shannon, sticking at my face for the entire time. I mean anything with Will Ferrell in it, u gotta at least a teeny weeny expected it ... Gosh, can't HBO Hits get any severe? It's absurd coz i'm sure my family paid a hefty amount to deserve at least a much meaningful collection of shows lining up for us, tat's actually VALUE FO' MONEY. Well, i gotta seal my mouth for now b4 i actually discover myself landing in a hot soup.

7th Feb was amazing. To me, anything with great food, great company, great venue will ever be oh-so-fabulous. Tho the fierce, uncontrollable wind could have pretty much swindled the whole process, it didn't really manage to grab hold of our spirits, did it? I mean, it at least worked. And everyone who had arrived, soared, spent and sweated for this event is very much appreciated. Thanx for everything people!, including for the wonderful gifts :)) I noe i wasn't being exactly the good sport/host in having plenty of time to entertain all of u at the same time.

It's my call, i apologised to some of u who had to create ur own form of entertainment. Like bringing ur own seat to a crowded hawker centre, it's sucky i noe that kinda feeling, much like everyone else. Blimey, it was upsetting for me as a host, to learn something like that actually. Coz a party, it all revolves around the guests, they matter, we just served. But believe me, it's all beyond my control. Hey wat do u noe, i'm actually so alarmed seeing such an overwhelming number tat I kinda LOST IT. Crikey. But definitely without a doubt, i love and live for this moment. Especially upon knowing that i have all of u in place.

I'm still not in my best form. It's dreadful. No slight idea how much i tried. Sucks to be you.

Merry 21.

2009-02-03T00:49:00.017+08:00

I'm like a butterfly coming out of a cocoon, a caged bird finally released; coz 21 only comes once and it's freaking arrived! *grins sheepishly.

Happy birthday to you - DJ Bobo

ps:hopeful of a good nyte sleep's wonderful dream of a gigantic traditional big sponge cake wif melting butter cream and gigantic candles on top as the crown combing the streets ala Popeye's chicken bucket in Little Nicky.Guiltyyyyyyyyy Pleasuresssssssssss,definitely Cheeeeeesssssssy!

Little Southern Sun.

2009-01-28T21:11:00.016+08:00

Marina Barrage is breath-taking at night... and so is my bed. Hahaha!

While holidays kinda give you a slight mental imbalance, i believe it has always do u so much justice. Duh, if u look at the plenty good times to spare. You can absolutely do anything under the sun, with no one to intrude. (without getting caught, obviously.) It is called freedom. And it all begins to make sense all of a sudden that I have absolutely no reason to excuse myself (jobless but always striving) this time from catching up on some proper reading.

Currently, i've taken up a novel (miss bookworm is back!) on one of the most clever life lessons to inspire - 29 reasons on why u shouldn't ever marry a rockstar. Fling, yes. But elope? it's just so wrong. I tot reading this is a cool way of comforting myself upon knowing that these kind of things are only handy for my little, sick sad imagination but not really in my reality. Unless destiny comes in. Which is totally a different story all together.

And don't laugh. I told fizah that I had to get some household chores done today and couldn't meet. I mean like, ME? Me, the supersize spoilt brat who's only couch potato-worthy. But hell, I'm not that bad okay. I'm really not stiff on these kind of things believe me only sometimes, when i admit that i'm totally hopeless. Well whatever then, you'll see if the kitchen is spick-and-span or not.

I'm holding back so much nowadays, u have no idea. I agree that it's totally the battle of the fittest. :(

ps:it's unpretty to hear sobs and watch her swallowing back her tears everytime you turn around.

Epitome of a blinded asshole.

2009-01-24T13:19:00.003+08:00

He, who don't deserves my sister, don't deserves my family's every pride as well.

That's for being hyperallergic to long-term commitments.

Fear is cheap.

2009-01-22T13:47:00.012+08:00

Are we all really set to face sophomore year?

I dunno about you guys but i'm actually dreading. I cld simply pee in my pants to show you how fucking terrified i am, really. But let's hope the 10 weeks' break really get the best of me. Tacky, but i really wanna appear fresh for my first day to the last. I actually want a reinvention of my life.

I'm gonna miss you all, truthfully i am. ;)

My mojo's gone.

2009-01-17T00:38:00.022+08:00

As we slowly shove all the hullabaloo of a loooong and difficult week aside, we welcome another hopeful weekend. TRUST ME, u don't wanna know hw my recent days had been. Painful is an understatement, ok lets don't go there. BUTTT school was unusually slackish this week (yippeee!) - which is definitely a looker. Literally, everyone's in an early holidays mood alredy, no shocker there. And dearly facis were starting to loosen up quite abit alredy which is absolutely swweeeettt! Esp my ever-favourite, Mr SMJ! And now, I'm carefully spending my next remaining days with my lovely W26Q before reality strikes; and farewell sets in. Cry me a bucket, everyone.

Now, i'm exhausted and dizzy as hell because i've no sleep, yet watching perky cooking shows on telly at 1 plus in the morning. How exciting. When will i quit. *Sigh.

i hope there's always a sunshine after the rain. a heal after a pain. and a lesson after a slip-up. i guess even tho i'm only (always) capable of giving 101 excuses to surrender, i meant what i said that regret has sank me in. tho i can't change the fact that i was a heartless mortal once, now it only begin to really open up my eyes and see how deep i had fallen, how distant a torching light was from me. i didn't realise how mighty the thickest of blood could be. u were beyond water, yet u were my survival. u brought in dad into the world which was really magical. and when it's too late for me to realize, you're alredy gone. several years already passed, i still noe, losing u is my biggest punishment yet.

i miss you, i miss all my grandparents. (if only, humans were.. using their heads relatively more... )

Mutilation.

2009-01-04T02:51:00.007+08:00

"the end is closer than ever before
and you'll want nothing more
when your head hits the floor
and you're lost in the darkness
and we say goodbye and go underground
or up towards the sky
up in smoke burnt down to size"

I'm done with school.
Most importantly, i'm done being me.

Full circle. (Edited)

2009-01-02T00:36:00.040+08:00

2009 to begin with,

I'm fucking shagged. I'm stumbling into pieces. Isn't at all content with limited sleep that i got from yesterday. I looked completely a major pain, no kidding. But i like it how my text inbox started to pour in on 2009 well wishes messages (thanx guys!) . But i didnt reply any... and y, cause it was quite a handful for me to take at that time. But you noe me. I dun love my friends any lesser and i appreciate all your efforts for wanting me to have a good 2009. And i want u guys to have an equally good year too nevertheless, even better than me, even much much better than a year u had in 2008. The past is now history. Cheers!

Well i finally decide to give up making resolutions alredy. Cause, every year the list would be either identical or it gets longer. I'm so distress waiting for my ever impossible needs to come true. I will not complicate myself further cause i noe that all the lists will be SURELY un-entirely-fulfilled. So save my sweat on this one, am too overwhelmed alredy.

And from this very day, i guess bloggers will start to initiate the details of their amazing new year's eve to their readers alredy. And i'll start mine;

Actually got to hangout with Hasrull at the wee hours of New Year, quite a surprise there. We literally talked bullshit coz we each had brain malfunction (hahas!). Both ever so deprived of sleep. His tongue slipped and he cheekily called me 'stupid' once (which he never had before and shouldn't even think of it). I had no more energy to defend myself but really felt like smacking his air-head. Ahh, now i regret not doing it.

Pretty birthday girl, Norlin and family actually hosted a great party (with obviously crazy great food.) The boys were still very much the ever same bunch of people i imagined, esp his brother. Same old twerps who made us hooked with their humour. Didn't noe playing 21 and black jack would be so dangerous. Although the extended family and me isn't running in the same blood, they treated me amazing. I noe though my 'Eve was spent being around aunties, uncles, children, strangers... no cool crowd, no clubs or concert, i still find it wonderful. Wasn't as extravangant as you can tell but it was really cozy and warm. They inspired me to end my 2008 with a bang. I still managed to gasp at not one but many fireworks (yay yay!). In overall, tot it was alredy enuff. Kudos everyone.

ps:romeo o romeo,ur lameness can be a hindrance i dun get you sometimes but to think without actually having you around,i'll still be dreaming of magic, unicorns and phoenix.im your biggest fan.

Don't mess with my moonlight.

2008-12-29T15:19:00.011+08:00

I'm leaving the giant 2-0 in a jiffy. And primary, secondary, ite phases are so milestones away from me rite now. Today, reality bit me real hard when i stumbled across couple of familiar faces of old bunch on Facebook. (What a bitch!) The ones, who used to "scratch my back and i scratched theirs." It's suddenly melancholy thinking how many friends i had lost in these long years. And when i looked at them, flashbacks of good and (less than perfect but always forgiven) memories seemed to reach me back by the head. I suddenly realised what happened to us back then when we were first realised we're all gonna face the real deal: separation. Don't we all try to play around with fate and make things work? If i had my way back then, i would have made a pact wif them that we all always stay together forever.

But we were all doing what we had to do; to move on. It's human nature, we did. And along the way, some things had to be released to give way for the new ones. Even though at first it seems interesting to change, but after awhile, as you get older and wiser, u seems to pine for the old treasures that once belong to you. I may fail to keep in contact with some of my friends but they wld nvr ever be less important in my life if they were still with me right now. If not, they're nvr actually forgotten, you see.

We will always be you know, friends.

"So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf of good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trail
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right
I hope you had the time of your life." -Green Day

ps:we only part to meet again... '&edited some previous posts.

Far too long in Paradise.

2008-12-28T17:18:00.014+08:00

And when i thought that yesterday's glory would nvr black out my sunday, i woke up late having toasted cheese for lunch and got one hell of a free scream. I'm still very much shaken by the whole thing ok? I wept hard like a tap too overload with water. I wasn't prepared for something like this to happen. It had been pretty darn long ever since we accidentally fall into this path. And i felt like my far-too-heavy-heart's gonna drop on the floor (which cld make me 'heartless', ooooh, just rub in, why dun i!) I was just sadly, vulnerable. But i'll repeat myself, I've nvr wanted anything like this to EVER happen. And then u made me look bad. Wat do u think i am? Some emotionless psychopath who only wants to toy your heart and fondly us both to be burnt down into debris. Is that it? (U have got to be kidding me.)

But thankfully Boxing Day was a blessing in disguise. It was unconditionally wonderful. Wasn't a washout for me ;)

To me, the best donuts in the country.

My bestfriend's physically and mentally gorgeous, in all ways.

Say, u and me we're good now?

ps:give it a try at the new Jusco at bukit indah, sans the old one at Tebrau City.cool shit.

And the kite says it's way too fly for the wind.

2008-12-22T16:06:00.017+08:00

Oh boy desmond, you really do noe how to shack up a good time. Hats off to you, u're really my social butterfly.

I looked like one of the guys from Wayne's World, agree? Haha.

I almost kill him with this one.

I feel pretty funny this afternoon. Perhaps could be from the huge breakfast that somehow can supply for a family of four. There are times when my appetite can go beyond control and i can eat like a cow. Sweeet Jeeeezz. And when you have a big plate of western feast in the morning, only a fool can resist that much luxury. Ahhhhhh.. No wonder, i'm freaking thick and ugly nowadays. IIII FEEELLL FAAAATTT and i can't blame anyone!

I'm finally functional coz i've started to make plans. To ensure that this vacation is no fruitless. I noe it's a bit too late, and arrangements shld be make like a week ago but hey, i got my senses late. And i'll make sure X'mas will be ANYTHING but ordinary, tho i'm not celebrating. I treat it like my own holiday. But still do always love the trees, mistletoes, snow, candy canes and the family films anyhow. Ahh, i might surprise myself with a gift (surprise is surprise, shldn't have said it out loud, oops).

I swear i've got no intention to give you a dress-down like tat. I truly understand how you feel and its no point typing it all out like tat coz somehow u wldn't have listened anyway. Cos in reality, we've been somehow distant, we're not even in the same breed in the first place, and i realised now that im not much that important for u to look up to. But i just did it anyway, didn't i? I felt really sick and all-weepy when everytime u did something like dat to your parents. I love your parents, family and even you nonetheless. And what you didn't realise was when you did that kind of things to them, they feel like they've somehow lose you. And when they thought, they can put a mountain of hopes on you, you crashed it all down like nothing ever matters. So more heart-wretching was, when i witnessed your mom nagged non-stop. Not because in a tone of she's really angry, but for the sake that she's sad, disappointed and she needs sympathy because she can't gets it from u. Please, get back to your senses before it's too late. I'm saying all this because there is still care left in me and i'll always call you my baby brother who i thought i've never dream of having.

I hope humans (including myself) will get themselves a prettier personality. And change is not necessarily that adverse as we all thought afterall.

Human rebellion.

2008-12-21T18:17:00.007+08:00

Finally all the moolahs can be well-kept, cuz surprise, surprise i'm not so high on the sugar content (hard icing cupcakes (yuck!), milk chocolates, B&j, etc...) anymore. & i just wanna rot at home; is tat so much to ask?

Even if one day i were to be buck-naked on the floor, being scarily lonely, no worries; i still won't count on you.
'Had an amusingly fun, hang-loose day at the Zoo with the godparents on Saturday,The Sunnyday. but still the weekends were not much of a storyline without you in it.

The young and the goner.

2008-12-17T11:49:00.022+08:00

"Perhaps there is only one cardinal sin: impatience. Because of impatience we were driven out of Paradise, because of impatience we cannot return." -W. H. Auden.

Rather eager to update for these few days. Covering up for the days that I had really missed. In case you would ask, i do love to pour everything out of my system and letting you read me like a book. Vulnerable as you can tell, i'm like any other girls who (owns a diary) and needing some kindest soul who'll appreciate my every thoughts being told. It may be too much for you to take; but it may be a talent for me to speak candidly right from my mind. I dun wanna cause any ruckus but for whatever outcomes there may be, i'm just glad you're there, listening. & that's y, we have a blog dun we?

For obvious reasons, I may call myself a movie-addict. I guess i'm too overdosed of watching too much movies. I'm rather familiarized with the whole society-phenomena thingy happening arnd the world right now. Recently overnight, Kate Winslet has become my fave performer. She seemed to have beautifully brought up all her characters to life, perhaps that's why her fans are so captivated by her flair, besides her stunning good looks alone. She played a dull housewife with a rather pervertic husband in Little Children the best. Omg, what a darling!

And baby, you said you'll change, but i still hear no sound. Everyone is fucking thrilled to see your ever-impending transformation, new hair, new image, new you. Can you speed up the whole process or shld i call upon Peter Perfect? Why is it so hard for guys to switch themselves to a whole new them? Why are they so delicate to changes? For us, we call upon a makeover anyday, anytime, right girls? But everyone is ever behind you. Cause frankly, its an eye sore for me to see you like this. & yes, yes a pity cause you're born with the perfect nose, snowy white skin and cherry, red lips. Aiya!

& i need some revampings on my own too. Seriously, working on it.

PS: anyway, i hope i dun bored you to tears. I know i can sound worse than a grandmother. :)

Empty lake, empty streets; The sun goes down alone.

2008-12-15T21:23:00.011+08:00

We are the boys and girls of Summer '08.
Even the season's changing, time to roll up our sleeves and gear up for new resolutions and future endeavours. Soon, '09 is waiting, let's get jiggy with it!

howdy f8!

Unfortunately, understand some bonds here were not destined to be in the cards for long.

Well, at least there’s a memoir that we all know will always last forever, no?

Remember our group name?

The ........ Gosh, hw cld i have forgotten?

Ditto, had tons of fun making history.
Thick black eyeliners, boas, masks, slinky LBDs; damn right, we're like the overnight Beyonce and Paris.
HAHAHAHA!

&& Booyah, have a superb holiday, hippies!

Return of Saturn with no qualms.

2008-12-14T11:52:00.011+08:00

Everyone's in the festive mood; finally, the holidays are here to stay.
Keep your fingers crossed, i'll be from the moon and back.
It had been too long.

Reach out to me, we'll walked thru this arctic christmas together.

& let's storm the cinemas for the highly-antipated, Bedtime Stories, folks ;)

What if tomorrow was just another tomorrow.

2008-12-03T20:54:00.010+08:00

Shut my eyes & dream everything is still floating.

Can't cycle ever be broken? Do anything comes to mind when everytime we watched movies? The twists and turns are actually the counterparts tat make up the whole fairy-tale, like hello! Not so much on the miracles' part. (Ring any bell?) Fuck this, fuck this sick, sad little agony. Evrything is just too much expected. Too arranged. I seek for some high-drama; so someone or anyone, please break a leg/bone/neck or something. Or much better yet, sprinkle dollars notes all over town.

I'm ever so thought-less a.k.a brain-dead when writing RJs. Gawd! This is so frustrating, when working on a school work with yourself knowing that your eyes are completely blurring out on you, simply hopeless. & your mind's already diverting to the bliss of your big, fat comfy bed. Usually, just a simple language and some scabby 'scams' will do the trick. Ahhhhhh, endurance is getting old.

Guess it takes such a looooooooooong height before eventually calling it a night, eh.

Once jaded, forever jaded.

Kiss me at the doorway.

Gees, i used to miss every single moment.

But what seemed to really excite me then, is becoming too stale for me now.

Adios Amigos Berambus.

Matching hearts are not for sale.

2008-11-30T01:51:00.017+08:00

God, he's the one that carried me sky high.

Let me show you my clouds.

Why must time have anything to do with it?

Ruling the x and y.

I left my heart at the back of your head.

The usual kakis.

Bitchy ol' karma. We, the followers always believe in it. But sometimes, times make us all want to really, really avoid it as much as we possibly could. Why can't life just be as unceasing as the flowy river, without any intervention of retribution? Part of the civilization of mankind has kinda caused too much severe heartache alredy. If only they wld understand that yes means yes, no means no and nothing else more is meant. If only they wld see how sincere the purest of heart can say or do, it has nvr ever meant to cheat. Haix, plenty of "If Onlys", so short of time. I am only saying all of this now cause i'm scared that karma's gonna get me for good.

So, are we humans or are we dancers?

Rockyourparty. Rockyourcity.

2008-11-28T21:25:00.004+08:00

Ultra-Overdue recollections. Circa when my hair's still practically jet-black. Look at how things had twisted and turned after all this while. I'm always trapped in the middle of present and past, and some kind wish, the memories would hunt me back. Pardon me; kinda all teary-eyed now.

But firstly, your bf's damn sneaky babe.

Striking it big.

No giant steps; only alot more steps.

Man, weren't we so tight.

Til i'm holding my last breath.

There are always many reasons why you shine from the rest.

Girls sometimes yearn to take the wheels on her own.

Don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

Guess who.

Spastic Fantastic.

Nab is probably gona skin me alive with this pic.

Honey, donch anyone tells you that it pays to take a second look?.

Bleeding right through the eyes.

2008-11-28T19:18:00.000+08:00

So much rough patches, so little empathies. Slowly, the 1001 respect for some men is dying and vanishing, who shld just be well-off pushing the trigger to their temples and rotting in hell soon after. Cause amazingly how badly they wanted us on day 1 seems to be so redundant now. Played us out with absolutely no strings attached when the party seems to be completely over. What kind of radical logic is tat? These men are beasts folks, not humans. They are hungry-fools, not lovers. (Fortunately, im blessed enough to say that this isn't happening to me.) But i'd heard about these countless tales time after time til it's becoming all too cliche. I wish her all the best wishes in the world, tho marriage isn't yet in my cards.

Haji Lane. House of Japan. Vintage Haven.

Sweet redemption. I looked like i was rapping tho.

Romantic? Ultra-Kinky. My bowling head's ready to blast out in the count of 5.

Mr Newly-uncle.

You are more than an accessory. You are my cozy wife-beater.

Battle of the cutest.

2008-11-23T18:32:00.000+08:00

One, two, three... go, AWWWWWWW! My favourite babies.

Suri Cruise. (That's a birkenstock or sumthn. Her style makes me cry.)

Shiloh.

Kingston.

Violet.

Valentina.

Hollywood babies. God, they are like ET. Make people all around go bongus and, 'awwwww'. They do inherit their parents' good genes, (no denying there) and took the world by storm. Under a year old, they already like what, wearing designer labels and be the littlest globetrotters around. (Even im turning envious!) They even make other normal but super cute, puffy-cheeks babies in the world look bad. But fortunately, i've no God-given rights in anyway to blame them coz they are just so freaking precious and adorable, right?.

Hello earthlings.

2008-11-23T17:25:00.000+08:00

In your eyes, there are blue and green in them.

Give me a thai, try Siam Kitchen. The Green Curry and Tom Yum made me hurl and kicked me in the head like seriously. Awesomeness. Dinner with sis is always timeless, folks.

Ray of light. "This is not shown everyday, u see."

Romantic? Try stalkerish.

And tell me, what we have is always real.

Amateur Fashion-Label Day. Pardon me, flea market was ages ago and i only managed to fill this in.

Girls who played hard, worked hard.

Men who helped all of this possible.

Final Touches.

Details, details.

Little Fashionistas wear Ruban Noir's corsage a.k.a name tag.

Fashion Angst.

Your words are all mine; my heart is all yours. And that's how secret smiles are created.